The last couple of weeks I have been forced to face a lot of things that I wasn't expecting to face.  Big huge problems that I had fretted over the weeks before the illness came, didn't seem big and huge at all anymore.  So what if my living situation was less than desirable? At least it was a living situation with problems that could be solved in one form or another.  Though threatening at times, it was not an unquestionable impending death situation, with which when it comes,  death that is,  leaves us no possibility, or opportunity to solve any problems big, or small that we face here.
On Tuesday, January 29th I had the symptoms early that morning of a stroke. I remember driving home from my mother's with the left side of my face numb, dizzy, stabbing pain in my temple, thinking and praying.  I knew I had to go to a doctor, knew I was supposed to anyway, I thought, really didn't know what I was thinking. As I thought of not knowing what I was thinking, I thought that is a sign of a stroke too. "What if I don't even make it my house to get dressed to go to a doctor?  What if I die in this car?"   I remember a lot of thoughts during the short eight-minute drive.  I thought of family and friends. I thought of things I had done and things I hadn't done yet.  I told God, "I don't want to die yet. I want to go to India."  When faced with death I guess that might seem a silly thought to think, but I think that thought carried me through that morning.  You see I believe, actually I know, God told me I will go to India and do His work there. I have seen myself there with thousands. So you see, that morning, God used that promise He gave me to give me a certainty that I wasn't going to die just yet. I also used that promise to remind God, and myself, that not only was I not going to die just yet, but also I had to be in good health to do the work that needs to be done. 
Over the next weeks, I found comfort in God, in His Word, and in the prayers and words of friends. I have one feather pillow I hold on to tightly and it always gives me comfort.  When I hold the pillow in times of distress I always remember this verse, Psalm 91:4 He shall cover thee with his feathers. 
A couple of friends had given me coverings in the past. I had a handmade quilt and a handmade afghan. While I lay in the bed remaining quiet and calm like I was told, I had those coverings with me comforting me constantly.  As I  was under those coverings I read this verse and found comfort,
Isaiah 22:17 Behold, the LORD will carry thee away with a mighty captivity, and will surely cover thee.
Now my storm is passing, I believe I am healed, I will live and not die. The Lord will show me great and mighty things that I don't know of yet. I will go to all that He will send me.  Whenever the door opens I will go through healthy and whole.  Right now I continue to do the work He calls me to daily. As I did that last week, God showed me yet another verse that speaks of covering. I was searching for verses for my children's class at church. I was looking for verses on love for Kid's Nite. In my search, I found a translation of Ephesians 1:4 that I don't recall seeing before.  I found it in the Living Bible. The verse tells me I am covered in His love. 

Ephesians 1:4
Long ago even before He made the world, God chose us to be His very own through what Christ would do for us, He decided then to make us holy in His eyes, without a single fault-covered with His love.  The Living Bible
Now that is a comforting feeling, to know I am completely covered in the love of God.
Happy Valentine's Day
God's got you covered.
Game Over
I  stopped traffic last Monday.   As I sat at a red light a man ran across the busy highway.  As I turned right I saw why he was running.  He was in hot pursuit of a dog, not just any dog, but one of those cute little curly ones wearing a bandana around his neck.  Just as I turned a car in front of me barely missed the dog. I pulled over to try to aide the man in the rescue.  I got and out and talked to the dog trying to keep him from going back in traffic until his owner got across the street. Just as the owner made it across through all the traffic, his dog turned to run to the other side again,  I ran to the street and stepped in front of a car and prayed it would stop.  It did. 
The chase continued a street over where the dog finally came to his owners in a church parking lot. The man's wife had driven their car over from the bank.  She explained to me the dog had jumped out the window at the ATM.  I told her I hope they didn't think I was nuts to chase them down as they chased their dog, but I really was hoping they would catch him.  She said, "Oh no, not at all, thank you so much for stopping. If you hadn't stopped he would have been dead right now."   Just as she spoke those words the dog came and stood perfectly still by her side in that church parking lot. She reached and picked him up, hugging him tightly and said, 'Ok, game over, let's go home."
I guess it does seem very silly to some for anyone to stop what they are doing, actually risk bodily injury, to chase a dog.  But on that particular day, I feel that is what God had in mind for me to do to show His love to someone else.  What if when God looked down and saw mankind running around playing games in dangerous situations long ago He had simply looked the other way.   He didn't do that.  He stopped what He was doing and sent His only Son to pursue us, and to give His life for us. If he hadn't done that we would be dead in sin right now, game over.  
Now I certainly am not suggesting for anyone to go play in the traffic just to see if the cars stop, but always be sensitive to God's Spirit and follow wherever He may call you.  Chase after His will for your life and show His love to others always in whatever way He provides for you to show that love. One day He is going to hold us tightly in His arms and say, "Ok game over, come on home."
John 3:16   For God so love the world, He gave His only son, that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have everlasting life.
Thanks for everyone's prayers, kind words, visits, hugs, and genuine love
you have shown during these past two weeks while I have been here at the
hospital with my mother.  The poem below is my devotional for this week.
I hope as you read it you think about your life and think of one thing
you can do for someone you love that you don't think you have the time to
do. God bless you all.


Yesterday I worried that my house wasn't clean.
Yesterday I worried because the iron didn't steam.
Yesterday I worried because my cat left home.
Yesterday I worried because I had to eat lunch alone.
Yesterday I worried that my mailbox was down again.
Yesterday I worried that they left some trash in the garbage bin.
Yesterday I worried that I was getting fat.
Yesterday I worried about this and about that.
How was I going to do it all this day?
Work, work, work- no time to play,
But today I look back on yesterday.
I long to be able to say-
My house isn't clean and I don't care,
It would be so nice just to be there.
So what if the iron doesn't put out any steam?
Wrinkles don't matter as long as it's clean.
My cat may be gone, but I hear a dog barking somewhere.
I may eat alone, but I sit in my own chair.
The mailbox is down, Yea no bills can come!
There is some trash left, but they picked up some.
I may have put some weight on of late,
But I get to eat out of my very own plate.
It doesn't matter if I get anything at all done.
I think I will just sit and look at the sun.
Today appreciate life.
Appreciate your friends, your husband or your wife.
Appreciate every little mundane task you get to do.
Believe it or not, each little task is important to you.
Thank God for your mom or your dad.
Thank God for together time you had.
"Life here is really short,"  is really true.
Make the most of each minute whatever you do.
Express your love for others,
Make amends with sisters and brothers.
Ask God to use you to change this world today.
Make sure you have no regrets tomorrow when you think of yesterday.